25 September, 2006

no te gusta marijuana

last night, out of sheer boredom, i decided to see what would happen if i ate a pot cookie.

i dont normally ingest the pot, because it gives me panic attacks, but i figured, well, what could go wrong? i was really hung over from last night and in a pissy mood.

needless to say, we wont be doing the experiment again anytime soon. i thought i was going to die. i couldn't even bring myself to watch tv.

raging panic attack!

the wire had their first day of school, and let me tell you, it brought back vivid flashbacks of being in school. vivid, terrifying flashbacks.

so i hid under the covers. then i thought i was having a heart attack, or that my internal organs were rupturing, or that my fingers were going numb. after a while, and after i forced myself to go to the bathroom and splash my face with cold water, the panic moved on to lighter fare, like i had left a cigarette butt burning in ash can outside and the roof of the attached garage was on fire, or that i left the stove open, the back door open and the cat got out, and that spiders were laying eggs in the clothes i left downstairs in the garage.

i slept real good after i came down though.

so, pot, i no like you!


The D.L. said...

i still like you, though, even if we don't get to hang out that often.

bvllets said...

I've been there and that sucks. Most times i've been drunk too. It's your breathing that makes you think you're gonna die. It's anxiety at its purest. I don't know how you think cold water would help, but i'm sure it got your face wet. And probably colder.